Monday, January 20, 2014

Heart like mine....

Today I realized we are only half a week into the spring semester. The past few days have been filled with so much craziness it feels like we are half way through but we have barely started. If this semester is anything like what this last week has been like it is goin to be an amazing semester! This past week I have had class, made new friends and reconnected with old friends, danced until I couldn't stand, and drank a little too much. I saw my beloved Broncos make it to the superbowl and I also had to deal with the cops and crazy parking situations...yet again! I love my crazy beautiful life and I wouldn't change a single moment of it. Every late night dance session, early morning class, and time spent with friends was time well used. Every moment is important whether it is just goin for a walk or spending it on homework. One of my favorite quotes is "remember our days are all numbered, not spent."It is a reminder to live life you can't get back that day you only have so many days and you have to choose how to spend them because well you can't decide to "spend" that day, you can't take it back or stop it so live it and make sure that everyday was worth something. that every day had something good in it. You truly never know what tomorrow will bring and your life can be thrown off in a blink of an eye. I have been reminded of this so many times and most times it is a tough lesson to learn and take in. I plan to make the most of every day of my life and every precious moment.
I have to remind myself that settling is not the way to go. Settling for a bad friend, a bad grade, relationship, job, or life. There is no perfect moment to start living your life because well it started the day you took your first breath. This is it...your right in the middle of it. So if you aren't happy with it, make a change. Only you can do that, only you are in control of your happiness. So don't waste your precious time on people, jobs, and things that will bring you down and make you unhappy. Every day I try to find something new that I would like to try. Whether it is a new recipe, food, style, haircut, or even a place to travel to. I find that keeping my eyes, mind and heart open it helps me appreciate all the little things in life and all the possibilities in it. Here are a short list of things that I would love to do in the next 10-15 years:

  • Live in another country 
  • Eat something new in every city I visit
  • go skydiving and/or bungy jumping
  • visit the Sistine chapel
  • See a Broadway show
  • Have a paint fight
  • run a marathon
And that is a VERY short list of the things I want to do. Every day the list gets longer and there is probably no possible way that I will get through it all but I will sure as hell try to! So I challenge you to try to find something new you want to do every day. Whether it is food, an art project, or whatever your heart desires!!! Each day may not be good but there truly is something good in each day. So find those good things, moments and memories and remember this is it so go for it and don't hold anything back because when it comes to the day when the good lord calls you home you don't want to regret not doing something that has been in your heart your whole life.

An appropriate song to go along with this post;

Thursday, January 16, 2014

First Day of School Jitters!

No matter how many first days of school you have it is still nerve racking walking into a classroom at a university, where you more than likely don't know a single person. That is even more so the case if it is a gen ed class or something along those lines. That awkward pause, especially when you are late to class, when you walk in the door. There are usually a few people who look back and then comes trying to find a seat. This is even more a pain if you arrive late to class for various reasons. If you are in a small class you have to find a seat that is between the girl with her books, backpack and other class utensils strewn all over the floor and her tiny desk and the guy who smells like he just left the gym and is always making the "I'm the funny guy" kind of jokes. Personally I prefer to sit next to the quietest, and cleanest people in class it makes it much nicer and less smelly. The alternative it is the big auditorium where everyone is elbow to elbow and trying not to hit there neighbor whenever they try to take notes. This is the most awkward class to be late in because well about a hundred students or more sometimes are packed in like sardines and it is hot and stuffy and add you to the equation people tend to get a little pissy. I don't blame them, I hate it when someone is squeezing into the aisles hitting me with their bag or putting there butt or other unmentionables in my face to try to get to the middle seat of the aisle because someone they think they know is sitting there, or its the only empty seat. I mean seriously just sit on the ground in the back or on an empty aisle seat. And this goes for the people who come early, sit in the middle of the aisle and move out so the people who are late have a seat and I don't' have to see their butt crack as the squeeze past me!!! And then there is those people who are too lazy to go around so they squeeze down the entire row to get to the empty seat on the other end of the aisle!!
Among the annoying seat squeezing people there is the endless jabber about the syllabus. One after another, the same thing over and over! Its enough to drive you crazy, but I suppose a few weeks in I will wish I was still only worried about the syllabus. And then there are the teachers who try to teach the first day. Personally I like these teachers because in reality the beginning if the semester is when I usually pay the most attention so the more we learn in the beginning the better off I am. This year I plan to try all year and work hard so really it shouldn't matter but that has been the case in previous years.
After class comes the fun part though. BUYING BOOKS!!!! you go the the bookstore or online and buy hundreds of dollars worth or textbooks that you may crack open twice the entire semester. Then when you try to sell it back at the end of the year you get five dollars for a two hundred dollar book. Buying the books is the hardest part though. First you actually have to get into the book store and fight the crowds or maybe even fight someone for the last WileyPlus access code. Then you wait in a line that is wrapped around the store. The best part is seeing the people who pre-ordered books and get to just walk out the door with a snide look that makes you want to go all high school bully and push their books out of their hands. You silently curse yourself, the sneering person, and the bookstore then continue to wait in line and tell yourself you will pre-order books next semester.
Aside from all the bookstore madness, the syllabus reading, and the seat squeezing I am actually really happy to be back. I missed my friends, campus and actually learning. I know I will regret that statement in a few weeks but at the moment I missed it. So here is to a new semester hopefully full of success and lots of A's. Happy learning everyone!

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Spring 2014

Well it is here people... Spring Semester 2014...BUM BUM BUM!!!!! I have seriously spent my entire day trying to get my life together for this semester and I am actually really excited for it to begin. It may sound a bit nerdy but I miss learning and having to actually think. I know I will regret that statement in about three or four weeks but for now I miss it. I am starting a new major and working to get my awful GPA back to where it needs to be. unlike most students my rough year wasn't my freshman year. No it was these last two semesters...right in the middle of my college career. And it freakin' sucks!!! So my goal is to turn it all around and graduate on time or at the very most a semester late. I'm pretty excited for my new major and to kind of start over... if only my GPA started over. Live and learn I guess. So this semester is about working hard and making the effort and not getting pulled into the same mindset as the last two semesters. I am going to work hard in school, work and I even started working out. Today. Hey you gotta start somewhere right? So here is to a successful semester mentally and physically (insert fist pump here).
Even though last semester was rough here are a few of my favorite memories. So enjoy and have a good night :)

Monday, January 13, 2014

So much to tell....

Well what can I say I've been slacking. I feel like so much has happened since I last wrote but really all I have been doing is working. I know boring right...but its ok I'd rather be bored and working than bored and not working. I spent the week working at the Legacy Traditional Schools while I was home for winter break. For those who do not know which is probably most of of my many jobs is a custodian for the Legacy Traditional School district. Yes people I am a janitor. All week I was cleanin classrooms, offices, bathrooms and takin out the trash. It was quite the week that's for sure. All in all it was a great week though. I got to ride a lil bit and chase a few steers on Tank and ride out in the wash a lil bit too. Above all I was able to be home for the better half of a week. Even better than being home for a week was my family came to Tucson for the weekend. 
My little sister had a volleyball tourni in Tucson so on Saturday we went to the tourni. Unfortunately the girls were 2-1 but they played well for their first tourni and I was pleasantly surprised with how well they actually did and how well they played as a team. After the tourni we came back to my appartment and vegged for the rest of the day was great. we watched the playoff game and ate lots of food. The family decided to stay another night and the day was spent playin with the dogs and watchin the Denver game!!!!! I couldn't have asked for a better weekend. 
When I went to college I knew that I would miss home, my family, my horses; but I never thought that this far into college I would still miss home so much. I miss being able to walk out my back door and go on a ride. I miss being able to go into my sisters room and talk with her until midnight. Even just sitting around eating dinner with the family. I miss the little things. It is crazy how when you're in high school you can't wait to leave. Every day feels like a million years and ya can't wait until you walk across that stage and grab your diploma, until you start packing all of your things, until you walk into that dorm room and meet your new roommate. you can't wait to saty up until all hours of the night, drink until you fall down and eat whatever you want. Then reality sets in. You stay up so late you miss your eight o'clock and a pop quiz. You drink too much and end up throwin up for two days and your head feels like it will never be the same. Then comes the freshman fifteen. No matter what you tell yourself, no matter if you promise to hit the gym everyday and eat oatmeal for breakfast salad for lunch and chicken for dinner it just doesn't happen that way! Soon enough you start getting pulled into the carb filled life of ramen, pasta roni, and netflix. 
I know I will always miss home and everything that comes with it but one day I will have a home of my own maybe not in five years or even ten but it will happen and  I look forward to it. until then I'll have to get through college and figure out what I am to do with my life. because at the moment I have no idea! With the next semester right on around the corner graduation is gettting closer everyday and I still have no idea what I want to do. So here's to another semester of late nights, good friends and early classes. 

Monday, January 6, 2014

Seriously people?!?!?!

So tonight I was scrolling through ya do...and I came across this post from one of my friends. The post said something along the lines of "I don't always unfriend people but if I do it is because they support gays." I seriously almost unfriended him but then I realized that I would be no better than him. I understand that some people may have been raised a certain way or they believe certain things but honestly that was just flat out rude! I am not posting this to try to defend gay rights and what not, don't get me wrong I support it all I believe everyone should have the chance to love who ever the hell they want as long as they are happy. But they can support themselves and fight for what they believe in, more power to em', it just makes me angry that people can be so cruel and close minded. What should it matter if someone is attracted to the same sex, different skin color or whatever!? As long as someone is happy what should it matter? Life is the pursuit of happiness, the pursuit of joy. And no one has the right to destroy that or stop someone from being truly happy with the one they love. 
It makes me cringe every time I hear someone make a rude comment about someones sexuality, their skin color, etc. No one has any right to judge, they have no idea where that person came from, what they have been through, or what they have encountered. I admit I am just as guilty of saying things about people. Whether it was about sexuality, skin color or whatever. whether I said it to fit in or just from what I had heard it was wrong and cruel either way. My eyes were never really opened to the cruelty of my words and the words of others until my junior year of high school. I had met this kid Juan in my american history class. He was very openly gay and did not care what people had to say about it...or at least it seemed that way. Him and I quickly became friends, he was the single most outgoing person I had ever met. He loved Selena and always had something positive to say. The more we hung out the more my friends would comment about the gay kid in history class, or that faggot or this that and the other. And it made me so sad to hear these things being said about my friend. Here was this person who was truly amazing and wanted nothing more than happiness for each and every one of his friends and people had only bad things to say about him because of his sexuality. The cruelty of it broke my heart. Juan and I stayed friends throughout high school and to this day. Even though we do not talk as much I thank him for being there for me no matter what.
As I continued through school, especially into college I saw a lot more. Even though a university may have been a more accepting crowd than high school it was still rough. I remember one night at an AGR gathering two of the girls in my sorority sat a group of us down and told us that they had been dating and loved each other. The most surprising thing to me was the fact that these girls thought that we would turn our backs on them and basically shun them for being lesbian. We were all sisters and we would have never turned our backs on them. I have to say my favorite moment with my sorority was at a meeting and we had these cards that we wrote to other sisters that we called emeralds. These cards had nice things written on them like "you're sweet I'm so glad we are sisters." and so on and so forth. Well I had wrote one in particular to basically all the girls and it was thanking them for reminding me of who I truly was and wanted to be and for helping me through the toughest time in my college career and never giving up on me. At the time I had broken up with someone and it got really ugly and I do not know what I would have done without the love and support from my sisters. So I read the card aloud and of course cried and thanked every one. Well after I sat down one of the girls Meagan stood up. I don't think she planned to but she did and thanked everyone for supporting her while she came out. And I remember in that moment was when we all felt like a family. We were all there for each other. We loved each other with and without our flaws, no matter who we loved or where we had strayed in the past. That is what life is about. Finding the people who make you happy. The people who make you want to be a better person. 
While writing this I have decided to rid my life of all of the negativity, to surround myself with people who I love and who love me for who I am and who I can be. If I lose friends, or readers because of this post then oh well. At least you do not like me for who I truly am instead of liking me for someone I'm not. So I challenge all of you to rid your lives of the bad, the cruel, and the negativity and surround yourself with the ones you love and the ones who love you and the positive! Be the person that five year old you would be proud of and would look up to. 
Here's a video that my sister, who is also a truly amazing and kindhearted person, just shared on Facebook. Watch it and think real hard. think about that person that person in your life that may just need some love and support. That kid in your class that no one sits by. Or that girl at work that no one invites to the parties. Sometimes even just a smile or a hello can make someones day.

Saturday, January 4, 2014

Is Spring Semester really only...A WEEK AWAY!?!?!?!?

Get ready everyone Spring semester is upon us. Only one more week until campus comes back to life. One more week until the UA mall is packed with clubs, Greek life, and any other organization you can think of. One week until my roomies last semester(insert sad face here). There is so much that is coming with this new semester and I don't know if I am ready for it. I am kinda freakin' out here!!!! Where's a paper bag!?!?!?!?

For one I am starting a new major. Don't get me wrong I am excited but also terrified at the same time. with this new major I can actually graduate on time and that is an exciting and terribly scary thought. A year in a half from now and I could be a UA alum. Then what!? Grad school? let's see two more years of school....hard pass! Well I have at least a year to kinda think about it and figure it all out. but less be honest....I probably won't think about it until a month before graduation....unless of course I stick with my resolution to not procrastinate! we shall see.

Number two.... I'm no longer an active in Sigma Alpha. Since the fall semester of my freshman year i have been involved in Sigma Alpha. I slept, ate, and Breathed it. I loved it, and still do. It will be really difficult and weird. especially when the girls start posting pictures on Facebook about the last sisterhood event, or the upcoming rush event. I guess the thing that I am most worried about is that i will just fade into the shadows because I am no longer active. That I will get the looks and comments of "oh yeah, she used to be an active." I know that a lot of the girls won't treat me that way but I feel like there will be a few that will...but I guess you can't expect the best from everyone. Either way I still consider these girls my family and my sisters. They have made me a better person and being a part of Sigma Alpha has helped me grow as a person. I don't regret being a part of this organization but I feel as if i have got everything out of it that I can. So to any of my sisters that are reading this I love you all and hope to see you all during the Spring semester.

Number roommate is leaving me!!!!!! That bitch....just kidding I love my roommate. She is one of my best friends, my big, and a great roommate. I have lived with Tat for going on two years now and have loved every second of it. From the late night rants, to the tearful goodbyes that we have helped each other through to the almost burning the kitchen down from making whatever concoction we have come up with for dinner. Every day has been an adventure and I don't know what I am going to do without her!!! She has been there since semester one and I know she will still be there for me but it will still be weird. Not being able to go into her room and talk about the latest book I'm obsessed with, or to rant about the last thing the ex boyfriend did that pissed me off. And on the other hand I have no idea where I am going to live next year!!!!!!

Number four....I am in love. I am in love with the man of my dreams. He is cute and sweet and goofy and he makes me smile every day! Whether he is singing Chris Ledoux Bareback Jack or he is telling me some story about the days events he can always make me smile, laugh or both. I fall in love with him again every day and love every goofy part of him. He has truly made me believe in love again and I am so thankful he walked into my life. I am so excited for what lies in store for us and I can't wait to share it with all of you...even if there are only a few of you.

Well that is about all that is in store for me in this coming semester...or three. I have to remind myself that every day counts and that I need to live for today. Not for what has happened or what may happen but for what I can control right now in this moment. So for every one reading this live for today because yesterday is already gone and tomorrow may never come so don't wait for your life to start because well it started the day you took your first breath and you don't know when you will take your last so stop waiting and live life because this is it, there is no perfect time to start something. if you wait for the perfect time it will never happen.

Here's a video that I think is appropriate for this post. Enjoy.

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Cheers to the New Year!!!!!!

Well its that time again....New Years! Gym owners favorite time of the year. Everyone makes their new years resolution and more often than not it doesn't last through the month of know its true and we are all guilty of failing one or five new years resolutions. mine last year was to get into shape...I haven't stepped foot into a gym since probably two months ago. So whether you spent your new years on the couch with a bottle of champagne and a gallon of ice cream watching Macklemore and Miley do the countdown in times square or you were with your friends and or family drinking and having a good ol' time, cheers to the new year and let's hope for a safe and blessed 2014!

Since it is new years and we make resolutions that probably won't be fulfilled I will join in the spirit and tell you my new years resolutions. So here they are:
1. Eat healthier
2. Don't procrastinate
3. Work out
4.  Blog all year!!!
I know they are typical but that's all I have right now so don't judge!!! I really don't have much to say at the moment so here are some pictures from my New Years festivities.

Happy New Year everyone <3